Thursday, July 28, 2005

Something Beautiful

by Robbie Williams

You can't manufacture a miracle
The silence was pitiful that day.
A love is getting too cynical
Passion's just physical these days
You analyze everyone you meet
But get no sign, love ain't kind
every night you admit defeat
and cry yourself blind

If you can't wake up in the morning
Cause your bed lies vacant at night
If you're lost, hurt, tired or lonely
Can't control it, try as you might
May you find that love that won't leave you
May you find it by the end of the day
You won't be lost, hurt, tired and lonely
Something beautiful will come your way

The DJ said on the radio
Life should be stereo, each day
In the past you cast the unsuitable
Instead of some kind of beautiful, you just couldn't wait
All your friends think you're satisfied
But they can't see your soul no, no, no
Forgot the time feeling petrified, when they lived alone

Some kind of beautiful (will come your way)

All your friends think you're satisfied
But they can't see your soul no no no
Forgot the time feeling petrified
When they lived alone


This song defines my state of mind these days. I know something beautiful is coming my way.

I am beginning to know more of myself and enjoying it. There are many reasons why I should love myself more and not feel guilty about it. After all, nobody loves "ME" as I do!

Ahh, life! Too short to enjoy its bests!

Monday, July 25, 2005

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Monday, July 18, 2005

Deperate Housewives, etc.

I once went to school and waited for my son and had the opportunity to sit with 2 moms. The conversation started easily. Comparisons were made of our children, sharing bloopers and laudes. But then, the talk went to husbands. Yeah, and you can see me squirming in my seat with the topic on hand. Then came pouring the 2 wives' desperation. Complaints and heartaches, anger and frustration. Being the only person not married (and I thank God for that!) I listened and gave my piece of mind. The 2 moms were a little surprised how I am so wise beyond my years. I guess I learned the hard way too early.

On a different note, I had a talk with our HR officer. It was a scheduled 1~1 session per quarter. It was a chance for me to air out some of my problems. When asked if I am efficient with work, I answered no since I am too sleepy to perform my duties 100% best. Without batting an eyelash, i told her that if another company offers the same pay i am getting now and in a regular day-shift, I will not hesitate in accepting it. My health is suffering too much with the schedule I have, as well as my social life. She recognizes the conflict between business need and personal need. She'll work it out with my Supervisor. At least, I am hopeful.

I got another maid! They are now 2 of them. 1 for Ewok and the other for the house. I will no longer be stressed out doing household chores. Yippee!!!

Lisel, my colleague in college, is leaving for Dubai this Aug. 3rd. She promised to help me out too when she's settled there just as she was helped by another collegue. Can't wait to join her there!

Pahabol: i am finding myself watch channel 44 in skycable where it shows video footages of local weddings here in Cebu. I am learning more about wedding preparation than ever. and got some ideas of my own. Pathetic.

Thursday, July 07, 2005


Last Monday was my 28th birthday. Nothing much happened. Ate and I had a fight Sunday so we were too quiet for that day. Jewit made my day. She invited me to watch a movie (Batman Begins) and dinner. I had a great time - the conversation was good.

Tonight, on my way here at the office, I missed my Mommy so much. All the memories of those times she rode to work with me came flooding back. She did it for a year plus. We had fun stopping by burger joints and fastfood drive thrus. Of course, my step-dad and ewok were also with us adding more to the animated discussions and fun. Then she stopped coming when she started feeling nauseous of the drive and the enclosed space of the car (she was getting weak by this time). I had a hard time choking back the tears tonight. I don't want the driver to see me cry. It's been 11 months since she died and still everything seemed to happen just yesterday. I can still remember her voice, her smell, her hands, and her laughter. I oftentimes catch myself greeting her silently when I arrive home.
It's hard missing someone so much. And yet I am assured that she's with the Father watching over me.

For my birthday, I wished nothing. But I thanked my Mom for raising me well.

I love you Mommy.